The Truth…

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If I’m going to be 100% honest, I need to say that being a Stay at Home mom was never my dream. Please do not misinterpret what I’m saying. I love my kids more than anything in this world. But there are days when I wish I could work. I’ve always worked, ever since I was old enough to get a job and I love it! I love contributing to my families financial wellness and having that time away from the house doing something that doesn’t involve diapers or SpongeBob. Now why can’t I is what you are probably wondering…well about three years ago my husband and I moved to a small farming community in Eastern Colorado and unfortunately it would cost us more in Daycare costs than what would be worth me working for. So here I sit waiting (patiently) until all of my littles are in school. I have about five more years of waiting and I’m ok with that. I just get extremely antsy and lonely. Once again I ask that the previous statement not be taken the wrong way….I know I am not alone during the day (two out of four kiddos are still at home) but having no adult interaction really kills me. There’s another question…Why don’t I have other Mom friends to interact with…well I haven’t found anyone that I feel that I truly click with. I have always had a hard time finding friends that I can truly click with, that get my twisted sense of humor and understand that I am not June Cleaver. I am not the perfect mother and I never will be. I’ve had a handful of really good friends but unfortunately I do not get back to our home town to visit with them as often as I would like. I would also call but talking on the phone with me when my kids are awake is like talking to someone with ADD and Tourettes. I think writing this is actually more depressing than it is in my head. So on the light side of this, I will (hopefully) be able to sign up for online classes to begin my journey towards becoming an IBCLC (International Board Certified Lactation Consultant) and by the time my youngest is in Preschool I’ll be ready to take the exam. I guess this will conclude my rant for the day…thanks for listening….reading.

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